I woke this morning to the sound of the rain, which felt strange.
Sometimes I suppose its the case; that you don't notice something not happening for so long, that when it does, is the moment you embrace it. It felt refreshing to have a change of weather, which seemed suiting for a Sunday afternoon (plus felt good to know my cherished tomato's were getting a good drink too).
I've been feeling pretty heavy hearted over the last week, so I took some time last night to look over some of my favourite photos taken just a few weeks ago during a bank holiday trip down to Cornwall. And here they are...
My favourite place to visit in Cornwall, is a little place very near the end called Gwenver Beach. Very secluded and tranquil, but stunningly beautiful. I can imagine if there ever becomes a time in my life, where things get too much, Id travel down to there for some time alone, to ponder over my troubles and allow myself to become immersed into the organic surroundings.
Just sometimes, its a dangerous thing having those special people in your life. It makes you want to keep everyone else at an arms length when they start hurting you. I could sit here all day, staring at the boats with a lingering smell of fish and chips trying to figure it out for myself, but its beyond comprehension. At least to me. I sometimes feel very alone and very exposed to the world. Its a shock when you are convinced they will always be there and you can take on anything together, then all of a sudden dynamics start changing and things go horribly wrong. Then I suppose you would feel very on your own.
Its hard sometimes to carry it all around with you and stay focused with a mission to try and achieve in this life. It feels highly unmotivating. Sometimes it helps to pretend to be an indispensable superwoman! Im not sure what powers Id have, but no problem would ever be too big to cope with. Superheros don't feel stressed, and they dont panic or feel anxiety, so I think for now, Id rather be a superwoman.
Perhaps I should try to adopt this alter ego more often, I think it'll do me the world of good!
Perhaps I should try to adopt this alter ego more often, I think it'll do me the world of good!
The Mousehole. A fantastic and friendly little place, with local artwork on show, home crafts with wonderful hand knits and beautifully tailored crochet projects, carefully produced "with love". If I had a spare few days, Id go back just to have another look around inside, its like an old fashioned sweet shop, with such unusual and quirky handcrafts on show, you're just not quite sure what to look at next.
I was very taken by a pair of crocheted baby booties, but for £22 each I kept a relatively safe distance! I had a lovely little chat with the lady inside who runs the shop and whose mother-in-law was the brains behind the gorgeous little boots, along with knitted hats and such things. Unfortunately there was not a pattern up for grabs, however I left feeling incredibly inspired!
I was very taken by a pair of crocheted baby booties, but for £22 each I kept a relatively safe distance! I had a lovely little chat with the lady inside who runs the shop and whose mother-in-law was the brains behind the gorgeous little boots, along with knitted hats and such things. Unfortunately there was not a pattern up for grabs, however I left feeling incredibly inspired!
I will always have the memories and I should have that to be thankful for. I feel incredibly relunctant to let those that mean the most just to slip out of my life, but I cant help feeling Im causing myself more upset and hurt. What will be will be. However, the main objective was that I left Cornwall feeling happier and much more at peace with things and even managed to smile too :)
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